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Weekly Update… A Rather Sad One
In the history of my web logging I have many of these kinds of posts - where I pore out all of my sorrows, and tell the tales of my life as a downtrodden architecture student. Here we go again; allow me to start my spiel.
I will suppose that I am never good enough. Although as pessimistic as it sounds, that’s the kind of the internal feelings that I had for myself for most of my life and it has kind of pushed me along since day one. Regardless, of my complaints, and regardless of how hard I ever feel I am working, I am never able to grasp the goal I set out for. Never was able to maintain a 4.0. I always made out with 3.5’s. Never was I able to woo the audience. I always had to plead my case. Being second, third, or not placing at all, has been the story of my life. It explains why I take it so dearly my accomplishment of being on the team that won first place of the 2009 ACE Mentors program. My successes are few.
That’s how I am characterized. I’m always late, always incomplete, and always unprepared. I haven’t gotten the basics of email etiquette, office etiquette, or any form of administrative or managerial skills. I am hardly professional.
It leaves to question my capabilities as an architecture student. It leads me to question my overall goals. Will I even become an architect, let alone a good one?
Everything has been crashing down on me in the past few days as I juggle the thousands of things I have to do. However, by today’s standards there is no excuse, failure to multi-task is simply failure. Everyone out there has thousands of things to do. I’m not special. So, between my position on a team redesigning a local rehab center, and my position helping out my school Student Development Office, and failing at leading a team of fellow students for a competition, and studio, and all my other classes - all 6 of them - there really is no excuse.
Like I was told last night, I simply “have to step up to the plate.” I’m guessing architecture strictly requires the best of the best. So I’ll keep in mind that I have to keep up, or keep out.
